June 25, 2021 16 Tammuz 5781 21:11 I left Musab for 3 days and Nights online because he kept testing me, hurting me with his masks that he put on in a channel that he created for me... because all of the people there seemed to be all him... I couldn't stand the pain of being near him, GOD gave me the grace not to turn on my gadgets my laptop and my MI10 Cellphone for the 3 days and nights. I had to 2 other phones that I can use, that were old so I used them using a new sim card. I was amazed at how I was able to survive 3 days not hearing from him, because I didn't send him anything either so there was no pain to be dealt with because my pain was coming from him not being able to message me all the time that I am missing him and longing for him. Tonight, I'm feeling the pain of missing him and longing for him again. Wishing I will stop loving him to stop myself from the pain. I just needed to endure 5 more days, I had to fast again from gadgets but I don't think I can ...
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