3rd Watch - We were not even lovers yet but we were already fighting, what an amazing thing going on between us, when I reread our messages, I smile and giggle because we are cute. And I'm very frank to him and he seems to be okay with my honesty because he is a very honest man himself. I want to see his reactions everytime I'm texting him a message, I want to see him laugh and get angry or be touched. I don't know what kind of fight we had but I certainly loved fighting with him, I love him with all my heart without even him trying... this is so unfair... but so real....
8th Watch - Sunday 15:00 to Sunset @ Busay Area
Girls day out with my Mama and Sister...
AVI Almighty and HOLY ONE of Israel,
Thank you for giving me time to bond and create memories with the girls of my Family, Mom and Sister Grace. Our times together I will cherish because one day I won't be near to them as I always am now... Forgive me for the lies I told My precious brother whom I have waited to love because of the fears that I didn't know still haunted me, traumas that I didn't know were buried deep and vows that I made to myself because of the violence inflected on me in the past. I remember Prophet Cez prayed for me regarding this issue, early this year. Thank you for those who faithfully watch over my Spirit.
Forgive me for hurting your Beloved Son Mosab when I told him to leave me
alone. It wasn't him, I didn't want to talk to Alhamdan anymore because
I was tired but maybe it was needed to protect us both. Forgive me for
my impatience. Forgive me for fearing that he is "another Antonio" I
know he is not. He is far from him. But I forget why I had to endure his
pain and traumas from girls and past experiences that made him
difficult in the first place, it was for our sake. Forgive me for my
ignorance, right now I started to read this book so that I could
understand this man more and I was heartbroken when he was violently
assaulted by the Israeli Soldiers. I believe his story, all of it
because I met an Israeli from Israaid, who was raped while he was
serving in the military as prerequisite to getting to University. I
understood it was compulsory for everyone to be trained in the IDF but I
didn't know the brutality of Israel Soldiers in the Camp that they
would rape the new recruits, weaker men just to feel stronger than any other men in
the Camp. This lust for powerful is a growing monster not only among
terrorist muslims but within the people of GOD even in your church this
has been a hidden snake hiding behind the masks of religion. Everybody
is abusing everyone and it never ends, this cycle of evil will defile so
many people in this cruel world. My brother was a victim of that and I
never understood his pain because I just read his book today. So forgive
me ABBA for mishandling this man that you love. Forgive me. I pray he
will find it in his heart to forgive me and never let me go because I
cannot get away from him. I am bound to him even before he has taken my
virginity, our binding covenant is Spiritual, stronger than any
physical bond. For it was YOU who have bound us together ever since the
World even began. As I read the first 3 chapters of his life, I held the
book real tight in my arms and prayed, ABBA, help me to love this man
the best that I can, YOU created me for him so YOU trust me to carry his
fragile heart..... so help me ABBA because it's so easy for me to hurt
him if I allow my own fears to rule me... please ABBA help me I cannot
do this without YOU, my love is not strong enough but YOUR love in me
for him will carry us through this wonderful journey called marriage.
Help me to finish reading his book and to understand the depth of his
heart before he gets here. I can't talk to him on chat because it's so
hard for me not to not tell him that I love him and he mistakes my love
for impatience... Help us to control ourselves to wait for the wedding
day to consume our love on the wedding Night, don't allow our fears get
the best of us... Please ABBA, we cannot love one another without you,
human love is so selfish, but we need YOUR DIVINE love to rule us so we
can love one another perfectly the way each one of us needs to be loved.
I could not stop loving him anyway even if I wanted to, not even my fears can stop this great LOVE that YOU have for him that you have planted and grown in my heart.
1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because
fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. KJV
I praise YOU and thank YOU for Mama Ester for teaching me to love a spouse divinely and not carnally because of her suffering and testimony, my own journey in marriage can be smoother because YOU gave me opportunity to learn from her and her husbands story.
So I trust you to break down the rest of the walls of his heart and mine, minister to us ABBA, because there are many bagages we need to let go of if we want to make marriage successful
All Glory and honor and power belongs to YOU ABBA!!!
Dear Prince Philip of Philistia, The KING and I we are proud of you, continue to speak the TRUTH and shine HIS light in the darkest of this World. You are making a difference in this world even though you are not aware of it, GOD knows all things. I wish you knew who I was... so I will wait for the day when the KING will reveal me to you because HE sure took me by surprise when HE said you are the White Prince born in Zion all along and I've known you since the time I was in London being sent by GOD to Muslim Palestinian friends and I was just so happy with your story because I felt I was able to reap a harvest in the field I have been sowing in the Muslim world because of the Palestinian friends I've met in London. I can't forget their kindness to me because they made me feel like I was their family. And I prayed so hard for them until today GOD gave me the burden to fast with them and all the Moslem cousins all over the world every Ramadan and I always do because it i...
Photo taken on 2nd Watch May 19, 2021 8 Sivan 5781, 1334/1335 #shavuot2021 5 more days till Pentecost #phoenix This was the look on my face the moment I received the greatest news of my life that I am King Mosab's Queenwife It's like I have a secret that I can not contain... Because it was this moment of this day that I finally realized the TRUTH when KING JESUS unveiled the secrets of the Veil! My cherie amor, won't you tell me how could you ignore, that behind this little smile I wore - how I wish that you are mine....My Mosab See Less 4th Watch May 19, 2021 #letterstotheking #songofsongs Dear Prince Philip, Today, I have a new revelation from ABBA... If I were truly to be honest I want to marry a hero, a real hero, a Warrior and Soldier of KING JESUS... I don't want a "jew" I want a true son of Abraham... all the other men I met are jews but they didn't love My KING, how can I love such men who don't love HIM? But then there's yo...
26 June 2021 17 Tammuz 5781 23:16 I woke up around 6:56 didn't want to rise up because of the pain I felt loving my husband a love that was uncontrollable, wild un-tameable love that I never ever felt with anyone in all my life. I did sleep longer than my usual sleeping hours but too much sleep also meant that I was depressed. A song filled my heart that morning that when I listened to it I added it on my spotify playlist. But when I finally checked my Phone at 8AM, sitting at the Sukkah or the place I call Veranda in the garden of our house, I was surprised to see his message for me at exactly the time I woke up. I was so surprised and comforted by the pain of longing for him that I cried... coz he wrote to me exactly what I needed to know after all the questions lingering in my mind about him, one thing was all I needed to hear and that he loved me, and he was coming for me and that one day he will silence all my questions with just the look in eyes. Wow! That was so powerful 5...
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